Monday

Another day, another sunset.


Been sick. Nothing really to mark the passing of the days, except another setting of the sun.

The Dawn of War community is dying. It never really had the critical mass of players to succeed : roughly 300 people online concurrently at any one time in a community of roughly 5000 active players online. Relic Entertainment have dragged their feet for quite awhile over the patch 1.3 : yet its times like these that we remind ourselves that Blizzard Entertainment also took quite a few months over patch 1.13 to fix the Beastmaster imbalance.

Maintaining a game post production is quite expensive : say they dedicate 4 programmers fulltime to maintaining company x player relations and to work on patching, balancing and adding new features, that's about USD 300,000 a year, roughly, for at least 3 years. That is what makes the difference between a game that is forgotten after a year, and one that defines the gaming scene for a decade.

Google tip : if you want Google search results to only return searches from a specific domain, you do a search for something like this. Where Aetherfox was my old nick. This is useful for searching sites that do no have an internal search feature.

Sunday

Confound them knaves!

For the first time I've read the full lyrics to England's national anthem, God Save The Queen

In general it's a boring, paranoid song composed by a paranoid man (King Henry VIII I believe). If an entire nation chanting regularly about God Saving your life in the nick of time will help, then he contrived it.

But I WAS very amused by the stanza...

Scatter her enemies
And make them fall;
Confound their politics,
Frustrate their knavish tricks,
On Thee our hopes we fix,
Oh, save us all!


*giggles* So utterly English. =P

WTF??? Unfair!!!


Been quite awhile since I had evil fun in Dota. Some of the players had not seen the latest version of Dota yet, 6.03b. It's hard to fight against an enemy hero you are not familiar with, to say the least.

I was playing the Phantom Lancer and he has a really slick move... called DoppleWalk. What happens is that when you use that skill, you break away from your real self, leaving a Doppleganger behind, while the "real" you goes into a Windwalk mode, able to run at increased speed, run through solid objects, and becoming invisible until you attack something or cast a spell. To the opponent's eyes however, the only indication that anything has happened is that the movement animation of your hero stutters for a tenth of a second. At any point in the fight they aren't sure whether they are still fighting against you or against an illusion.

Even worse, two of my opponents did not know about the DoppleWalk skill at all. So to their eyes what happened was that out of nowhere, my character appears right next to them, uses the spirit lance + dagon combo to slay one enemy hero. Then I DoppleWalk and escape while they immediately retaliate against the Doppleganger illusion I leave behind... and they think they're killing me, of course, until the image they are attacking takes enough damage that it disappears in a puff of smoke. Of course this makes them think that it was an illusion all along that was killing their heroes... so I get a stream of "WTF??? How come your illusions can kill our heroes?" on the public chat channel.

Thursday

don't leave your handphone lying around

Names and identities have been changed to protect the privacy of the individuals involved.

Just something randomly funny. There is this Allen guy who's half insane most of the time, and drunk the other half of the time. A bunch of my friends are at a table, and he notices that a girl had accidentally left her handphone on the table and wasn't there.

Well no one really liked her very much, and they don't stop him when he picks it up and says, "hey I am going to call my mom" cause they don't believe him anyway.

He dials home (South America) and he goes "hi mom!" and then immediately hangs up. Everyone stares at him in shock. Then another girl pipes up : "hey... that's terrible... now your mom will be really worried... what if she thinks you've been captured by terrorists or an earthquake happened?".

So with everyone watching, he dials home again and goes "hi mom i'm ok don't worry" and then hangs up immediately.

Wednesday

Nice Wallpaper


This doesn't look like much but it makes a surprisingly good wallpaper. The colours are soothing, and the sense of perspective it gives works really well for a desktop. Don't ask me why. =Þ

I've been looking back at my collection of music and movies and I find I am attracted to stories and themes which are sad or tragic. Even the stuff I write is like that. Maybe I am a natural pessimist who likes to wallow in self pity, hehe. Or conversely take pleasure in the sadness and tragedy of others? (omg scary thought, everyone now be very scared of me hehe).

There's a bunch of interesting tests at the BBC website link thanks to Karcy.

I recently took the BBC gender test and I scored 25% male. The "typical" male is supposed to score 50%. I scored distinctly female in three categories... first one is, what sort of facial features I like... uhm... apparently I like masculine features !!! WTF. Males are only supposed to like feminine features, while girls apparently can go either way. That's why "pretty guys" as also quite popular, while mannish looking features on a girl is considered really bad.

Second one was word association. Girls apparently better at words : well for me I write and play scrabble lots so maybe this skewed the test. =Þ Third one emotion :(guys are supposed to suck) the test was about identifying emotion based on just a photo of the person's eyes.

I also did the identifying fake smiles tests and I got 15 out of 20. I would be interested in how other people scored : they didn't give the average mark or score that others got.

Monday

This is what happens...


This is what happened when I told my friends that I might have to leave the country for good. (repeat for X number of other friends). First picture of myself ever posted here : well I figure that most of the readers here have seen me in person before anyway.

Visa approved. I am no longer a criminal.


Sunset while eating dinner. Full length windows across the lounge and dining area, from the 4th floor, overlooking the parklands.

The other news is, my bridging visa has been approved. This means that retroactively, I am no longer an illegal alien in this country. Future plans : applying for bridging visa B as soon as possible the flying home to renew my passport and process some other documents.

Random Song (free association)

Been on a song collecting spree lately, looking for old songs.

Save the Best For Last (Vanessa Williams)
I like themes like this. Now we're standing face to face, isn't this world a crazy place, she says, and it's true, the world is pretty mad. Something like the lyrics from Dave Matthews Band, Crush, and he goes, It's crazy, just thinking, knowing that the world is round, I'm here, I'm dancing on the ground, am I right side up or upside down, and is this real or am I dreaming?

What If (Kate Winslet)
Uhm I didn't know the Titanic chick could sing. So random... again nice lyrics. What if I had never walked away, Coz I still love you more than I can say... which is riding along the same wistful theme as, I recall, an old S Club Seven song, Never Had A Dream Come True where she goes, Even though I pretend that I've moved on, you'll always be my baby / no matter where life takes me to, a part of me will always be with you. It's really sad : but there are bound to be times in life where you connect with someone special but because of circumstances beyond your control, and you are left wondering, what if... well this theme has been done to death anyway, in movies and song.

Reminds me of the main theme from the last few episodes of Kanon. The girl and the guy were in love before, but circumstances contrived that he forgot about her. (she still remembers). They meet and fall in love again for the second time, (for him he thinks its the first time) but the girl realises that she can't be with him. She gets one wish, and he asks her what she wants, and in a heartbreaking moment she says that she wants him to forget about her, like the first time, because he is better off not remembering rather than spending a lifetime of hurt.

Well she's a spirit (not alive) and she asks him to please close his eyes, and she puts her hands on his shoulders and kisses him on his forehead while he's saying, don't be stupid, I could never forget about you, why would you ask such a thing, don't go, you can't leave before I've said goodbye, please say something, let me know you're still here. And when he opens his eyes she's already gone.

Saturday

The Quotations Page

The Quotations Page makes pretty good reading if you are bored. Occasionally you find some gems, and it's sorted by subject and author too.

The advantage of a bad memory is that one enjoys several times the same good things for the first time.
Friedrich Nietzsche (1844 - 1900)

What is the difference between unethical and ethical advertising? Unethical advertising uses falsehoods to deceive the public; ethical advertising uses truth to deceive the public.
Vilhjalmur Stefansson (1879 - 1962), "Discovery", 1964

Good advice is something a man gives when he is too old to set a bad example.
Francois de La Rochefoucauld (1613 - 1680)

Of course the game is rigged. Don't let that stop you--if you don't play, you can't win.
Robert Heinlein (1907 - 1988)

Friday

Starcraft 3D models


Looks gorgeous... some modeller made some renders of Starcraft buildings and artwork a few years ago. Not sure if anyone will recognize this but this is the Lost Temple map. The 9 o'clock start position, to be precise. God I have played that map too many times. = ) This isn't going to be made into a functional game, since it would violate copyright law. But we can all wait for Starcraft 2...

Tonight I played DOTA... I had a decent team and we won lots. Though the individual playing skill of my teammates were lower compared to the opponents but we had more teamwork and more team oriented strategy... yay... very nice to win that way, which is often what happens since I get put together with the "weaker" team due to my supposed skill in the game... what I feel is the most important is not how good you are, but how well you work with and communicate as a team, like the different parts of a body working together. And you need one person calling the shots and determining the flow of the game. I normally have to take on that role, but it's nice to play in a situation when it's not me. Less pressure and I can concentrate on my playing more.

Kagaya : Artemis


One of my favourite works by Kagaya.

Wonder where I can get the full sized images...

In other news, no word from immigration department. They've received my application, but haven't processed it yet. That's good, at least. If the police come to catch me I'll hide under my bed. Or maybe the cupboard.

Sniper was saying OMG now I know a criminal... and he's someone I lived with for a year!!!. She forgets that late one night she confessed to me that she's a criminal too. =Þ

Thursday

Malaysia BOLEH!!!!


Went to watch Sepet today with kimmik and Lisa.

It's a sweet-sad love story with a charming touch of whimsy. What really sells it is the lovability of the main characters. One of the things I love about it is the blending of languages - it's something so unique to M'sia. The writer happily mixed in Mandarin, Cantonese, English, Malay and even Hokkien. I only wish she'd contrived Tamil as well. =P

My only quibble with the movie is the artsy-it-is-what-you-believe ending. My theory is that Yasmin Ahmad of "takkan semua petronals punya ad ada orang mati" fame desperately wanted to kill someone off as her heart-wringing, artistic touch... but the other members of the crew wouldn't allow her to. So a an unhappy compromise of "did he die or not? Dunno lah... maybe... " was reached. =P

Sepet would be the first Malaysian-made movie I've ever watched in the cinema, and I highly recommend you watch it too. =)

I also indulged in a luxury purchase to celebrate the submission of my thesis' draft...


This is part of The Body Shop's "Create Your Own Fragrance" line. Basically the line is comprised of small colourful bottles of scents that are generally uncomplicated. The idea is to blend the scents together (not as in mix in a bottle, but to layer them on by spritzing one then another) to create your own unique fragrance.

I bought this with Kimmik, since 1 bottle retails for RM36, and 2 bottles for RM59. Kim's been in love with Amorito for awhile. I originally intended to by Beleaf, but it was out of stock... so, attracted by the pretty pink bottle (I'm so shallow) I gave Chymara a sniff and fell in love with it immediately.

Chymara is described by TBS as, "Musky and sexy. A 'floriental' cocktail with notes of berries, white lilies, and amber." Which is odd, since the reason why I liked it is that it's a light, sparkling floral with yummy fruit notes. But that is at first spritz. Now that it's dried down, I do realise its' musky and a wee bit heavier than I wanted it to be. I still love it, but I'm beginning to wonder if I should mix it with Minteva to freshen the scent up a little. =P

Whether the fragrance is sexy or not depends on a certain someone...


Wednesday

Ominous feelings...

Every day I wake up not knowing if this will be my last day here. Life goes on I guess. Better to have loved and lost than to never to have loved at all : to embrace life without regrets and death without fear...

If I have to leave : To everyone who I am friends with here, I'm really sorry...

I really am.

Appleseed


Appleseed is the latest anime movie featuring a manga series by Shirow.

It's a visually stunning piece of animation, being one of the few anime in recent history to be fully rendered in 3D. One area where being fully computer generated fails is in the display of human emotions : the character's faces look and feel flat, for the lack of a better word. There is plenty of potential for emotive content which felt unfulfilled throughout the movie. That being said, its worth getting this DVD just for the opening 10 minutes introduction : the fight scene, rescue and then approach to Olympus city really get your expectations up : too bad the rest of the movie fails to deliver.

I didn't like the storyline : feels very badly written and paced. Too much information dumping in the form of unbroken dialog.

That being said, this IS a Shirow work, and there are hints of interesting themes and ideas, though nowhere near as many or as good as in the GITS movies. Setting : desolation on a world wide scale after the N-th world war. Humans and bioroids (cyborgs?) are at war, except in the city of Olympus. The humans in Olympus have put a computer AI in charge of the city, and it introduces a certain proportion of Bioroids into the population as a stabilizing factor (since bioroids don't hate or feel emotions, this reduces the chances of conflict and war - in times of tensions there will be more bioroids, etc)

On one hand you have bioroids as the destroyers of mankind, since they are at war with humanity outside Olympus. On the other hand you have bioroids as the saviours of mankind, since some believe that having a part bioroid society is the only way to prevent future world wars.

You have Deunan, human female, who was previously in love with Briaeros, who is now a bioroid.

Bah. This could have been so good =Þ

Tuesday

Makoto Shinkai returns


With his latest animation, A Place Promised in Our Early Days : Beyond the Clouds. I have been waiting some 2 years for this since seeing the trailer.

The visuals and music are excellent, possibly the best the industry has seen so far. But the story feels draggy somehow, perhaps because I was expecting something as snappy as his first animation was. Some sob worthy scenes in here, you really do feel like crying sometimes, but the emotional development seems shallower than it could have been. *bonks director on the head*

The story is intriguing, and took me completely by surprise. The start of the show was really really slow, and then suddenly you find out what is really happening and then things get more interesting. But the pacing is still too slow for my liking.

The emotional punch and content he delivers in 80 minutes I feel he could have achieved in a 50 minute short movie. He's done it before with Hoshinokoe. Don't ask me how, but I just have a high opinion of his ability. =Þ

Saturday

My confession...

I know I have enough bags. And indeed I do. But but... I saw this and I couldn't resist!



It was pink! And striped! And happy! And pretty!

And it only cost RM10

After a day of gazing longingly at madly pricey bags, when I heard RM10 my hand headed for my wallet before my brain had fully comprehended it. It was a knee-jerk reflex action and I couldn't have stopped it if my life depended on it.

Okay I exaggerate, but you know what I mean.

I justify my purchase by my plans to turn this bag into a craft project for after uni. I intend to make this bag into a dream bag, a bag that's JUST the way I like it. Modifications include lotsa pocketses on the inside so everything has a place, better handles... Kim made the brilliant suggestion of grommets and ribbons. BRILLIANT.

Now if only someone will tell me, how DO you attach grommets?

Ah-CHOO!

I've been down with an annoying flu, not too bad, just annoying. I've gotten over it now, but at the height of the flu's annoyingness I had to sit down and write out a b'day card for kimmik.

As I set down and fished out a pen, sniffling all the while, I was seized with a dreadful sneezing fit. As soon as it died down I grabbed my pen and scribbled madly before being felled once again by a flurry of sneezes. Snatching up my pen again I made it all the way to my signature before being overcome once again. My eyes swimming with tears I picked up the pen one last time to attach my signature.

Kimmik says I must have been pretty bad. I signed my name EmiTy Lan.


Thursday

Blue Screen of Death

This is what happens when you only put one device on the secondary IDE channel and accidentally leave the jumper cable setting on slave position.

Without having a device on master, the device will still run but cause random memory paging errors which then results in BSOD and subsequent shutdown.

Wednesday

Why you should not keep batteries in your pocket

Too much metal in there (coins, keys) my battery started short circuiting itself and became burning hot!!! I hope I haven't damaged it too badly.

Tuesday

Short Fat Indian Nazi

I have a lecturer who I honestly believe is Hitler, reincarnated as a short fat Indian woman, and released once more upon the earth by the powers of hell to make humanity miserable.

She won't let you read in her class. She won't let you doodle. She won't let you sleep. She won't even let you LOOK sleepy - she stalks (if a short fat person CAN stalk) around the class sweetly (the way Short Fat Ms Umbridge from HP Book 5 is sweet) asking sleepyheads to run along and wash their faces. And to cap it all of, she won't let you even LOOK BORED. Wtf!!! She'll ask you where your brain is. >_<

What, does she think she's the prophet messiah and we're to listen to her or risk eternal damnation in the fires of hell (clearly with her)?? She obviously thinks her notes (which are frankly drivel) IS the holy book which we must memorise with all due devotion in order to obtain salvation. *froths at the mouth*

I swear, having to see her for 3.5 hours a week is bad for my brain. If only because my brain's in danger of overheating due to much fuming at her inanities. Gah! *stamps*

Monday

Threads of friendship

There is this girl I have known for years. Although I think I will never see her again I won't use her real name : just say she's called L.

Anyway, L is severely obsessive, bordering on insanity. Character wise, she's extremely determined and motivated to get what she wants. That's where the problem lies, really. She recently SMSed me 10 times in a few hours to bug me to do something for her. She's scary. She got evicted from the apartment she was living in but refused to move : after weeks they finally had to call in the Fire Brigade to get her out. Then she calls me from the hospital and says they won't let her out.

I have just realised that the fact that L exists has brought so many people together in friendship. Basically a simple lunch among acquaintances can turn into a three hour bitch session... about L. So many diverse groups of friends have been combined together this way.

Well recently I discovered that L has a younger sister. I look at her and realise that she fits my mental image of what L would be like without the character quirks. She's tall, beautiful, carries herself very well, dressed very sharp and chic. Everything about her has to be perfect : that comes with the obsessive character trait I guess. Her hair is long, and perfectly kept, her glasses, just right and trendy enough for her outfit. Otherwise she wears contacts. So perhaps this one is obsessive as well but about something else : appearances. This could be the more dangerous one. Or is this the more normal girl the world expects?

It is a sad feeling I have. My friends have asked me why I am the only one who still does things for L or even consents to pick up the phone when she calls. I honestly don't know : for such a selfish person as myself...

Dawn of War


A really good function in Dawn of War is the ability to use custom made banners and badges on your troops.

This is a good Orky banner I came across recently.

I was ranked 34th for Chaos before my exams. Now I still too busy to regain the ranks I lost due to rating decay.

Spring is here


I have fallen madly and helplessly in love with the new scarf mini bag from the Gap spring collection. The idea is just so great and pretty! They have an entire spring collection centered around pretty silk scarves that resemble the male tie, only they're the same width throughout, have rounded ends, and come in sweet, brightly spring colours.

While I'm sadly aware that I'll never own this bag, I live in hope of being able to imitate the idea. I'm sure I have a bag or two that can be jazzed up with a pretty scarf. Thing is, no scarves here are remotely like the ones Gap created, and I have to admit their scarves have such clean lines and are made like sashes, so they don't look over-fussy. Ah well, I'll keep my eyes peeled and hope this idea catches on here.

Sunday

Pretty in PINK!


A bunch of my classmates made a pact to come dressed in pink. It was a cool and exceedingly pretty idea. =D

They looked like flocks of happy chatty flamingoes. The actual number of participants greatly exceeds the number in this photo - these are just my tute members. Still, I love the whimsical idea and of course, the colour choice!

Now to influence them all to turn up in lavender. =)

(Front row and furthest right is our dear Kimmik who wasn't part of the pact, but turned up in pink all on her own)

Mine! Mine! Mine!


I find a need to personalize my things and make them 'mine' - especially if they start out plain. Little embellishments like this pretty heart & flowers iron-on (which is on my little draw-string bag) are almost a necessity to me - if it's not 'MINE' I don't care quite so much about it. Perhaps it's an expression of my latent territorialism that has raised it's head and roared lately.

*seriously considers branding boyfriend with a pretty sparkly mark*

Saturday

Server Death

Time of death : approximately 10:30pm. The body was still warm when I checked for a pulse : rigor mortis had not set in yet. Cause of death : power supply failure, further damage to nervous systems possible. Will attempt emergency transplant procedure 462.

Soon.


I'll be back. = )

Thursday

Dead Roses


Long dead roses, but I think they look artistic so they're staying on the table for awhile more.

Love at first sight =)


I fell in love with these sandals the moment I saw them in the new Hartamas Mall. But to my dismay, I didn't have enough money on me to buy them, there was no ATM within walking distance, and darnnit, Baley (the shop) didn't accept credit cards. -_-

I reserved the shoes, and walked out of the shop wandering how to make a trip all the way back there when I was swamped with assignments.

"Em... are you sure you really want them?" Jay asked.

"Yes..." I replied absently.

"Really really?" Chris had a mischevious look on her face.

"Yes, I do, Don't you think they're pretty?"

"Oh yes we do, and we're going to BUY them for you! Happy belated birthday!"

EEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....... I have the best friends! *hugs both Chris and Jay*