This is the worst day of my life I declared, for dramatic effect.
My friend looked at my quizzically and asked innocently "Was it that bad?"
That kinda stopped me short. She had no idea of course.
And I had two Choices. I could tell her, or not.
I decided not to. And so she doesn't know to this day.
Do decisions made at crucial times define who you become? Sometimes I wonder if by choosing to do something different, i would have set my life down a different path. Succumbing to temptation once, makes it easier the second time.
"Well no, I'm just kidding" I said, with a sheepish grin. And she gave me a piercing look before turning away, unconvinced.
Because by the act of saying it was ok, it made it ok.
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In answer to your question I do believe that's a definite yes. Every day we're presented with thousands of possibilities and choices, some small, some considerably more substantial. And it is during those substantial decisions that we begin to define who we are as a person.
When I look back on some of the most important moments of my life I know if I had have taken another option then I would be a COMPLETELY different person than I am today. But it's best not to dwell on the what if's and wondering what could have happened, instead focus on the choice's you have made and embrace the person you're becoming, wether you're happy with it or not.
nice hearing from you missy. hope you're keeping well.
and sorry... not possible for me to play all games at once =p
There's a limit to how much words affect reality.
I once fell in love with a girl, and her every word was a lie. She'd say that she didn't feel more than "like", then look me in the eyes so long that we drowned. And I'd say the same. We persisted like this for weeks, convinced, utterly convinced (for it was true if it were said so) that perhaps this was what we both felt. When we decided to break up I finally told her that I had indeed fallen in love, a bit. I said I was sorry. She said, to my surprise, that she loved me too.
Heh. Well, you know, you can only try.
But words are powerful. If we'd been more honest, if I'd been more honest, then maybe things would have been different...
Love is a simulated emotion.
That's what I feel, from my experience.
It's quite difficult to control, but it is still simulated.
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CatR.
Cat: But a simulation means its a proxy of something real, no?
I don't think it's simulated. Speaking from [past] experience, actually falling in love is such a powerful emotion that even though you _know_ intellectually that it's subjective, to the subject it has the force of objective fact. "I will be with you forever" becomes equivalent to "the sky is blue and the grass is green". And I do not consider myself easily influenced by emotion. It's a really freaking weird phenomenon.
And there's physical evidence that being in love involves changes in brain activity...the BBC news site had something about it a while ago.
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